Woke up randomly.
Shoulder still hurts.
Really need a massage.
So I tried doing yoga in bed.
Maybe I’ll try it out on the ground tomorrow.
Man I just really want to busy myself with work or extracurriculars or something I hate having so much time to myself..
How did we become the people we are today
after all that we once were?
I really just want to break down. I’m so tired of studying. At least one midterm or quiz each week. I hate it. I don’t understand a thing in math. I think I’m at the wrong school. I’m thinking about transferring. I don’t think any credits transfer over. I’m wasting time and money. My college GPA might be too low to get into schools I could’ve gone to if I had initially chosen to after graduating high school. I worked too hard in high school to fail now. I’m not good enough. I’m a disappointment. I keep hurting people I don’t want to hurt. I feel like I don’t belong sometimes. “If you were sorry, you’d do something about it.”
/done.
I can never
find the right words
to convey
how I feel,but for youI’d try.
“It’d just be so stupid if I end up going there. It’s like I wasted time. What if I just went from the very beginning?”
“Well.. I don’t think life works that way. It’s all trial and error.”
Watched Silver Linings Playbook last night. Great movie, but it hit me too hard on a personal level. Even wanted to stop it at one point.
Welps.
Most amount of stars I’ve gotten without photoshopping more in woot.
From the top of Mount Soledad
Getting my shit straight.
More time for myself.
No more dicking around.
Focusing on class.
Maintaining healthy habits.
Trying to get
where I want to be.
“You do you.”
